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There is nothing wrong

Few hours ago, I was invited to a meeting about an opportunity, that “might yield some business”. The more I listened about this meeting, the more I realized that it would be a waste of my time. You see, some time ago, I started a business, since I was unable to finish my studies and get a job in the area which I loved. So, I gathered people, brought ideas to the table, did few events and organized activities and it went great….for few months. The ideas were still there, but the fire [that is crucial for a self-employed person] was loosing its spark. 

I returned to my previous passion, which had nothing to do with this business, and planned how to finish what I loved and get on top of my field at the same time. So far, so good. 

But sometimes, people doubt my abilities and my willingness to finish what I’ve started. I understand that, I did stop before. But my point is, I stopped, I tried something completely different and realized what I love! I realized that I was completely in-love with my “ex”! 

There is nothing wrong with trying something and realizing that it is not for you! It is wrong if you just sit around and wait for something to happen to you. It’s wrong if you do not try! If you just fall and do not get back up. You don’t have to force yourself to doing something that you repeatedly do not enjoy! Actually, it’s not that you do not have to, but you should not and must not force yourself to something you hate! 

Try things you enjoy, see if you can enjoy that your entire life and dedicate your time and energy to that. But if you don’t feel that you can produce art every day of your life, or design cars, or proof-read texts, then by all means- DON’T DO IT! But do try other things and don’t stop until you are certain of your choices. 

So swim into the business and try it out. It’s not a bad thing if you do not find yourself in that particular river. It’s wrong if you don’t find your own river that can lead you to the perfect sea. 

Missed Birthdays

For one day in a year, I become selfish. I want to have everyone call me, think of me, send me the warmest of wishes and love. I want my friends and family to make effort when choosing their words (and gifts) around me, and I want to be the happiest person in the world. Yes, it’s my birthday and I want to be the center of attention!

Every year I say that I will not make a big deal out of it. I’m not that young anymore, I don’t have that extra money to spend on one party, I just don’t feel like making a big fuss. But than the day comes and my best friends are the first to call and ask “So where is the party?”…and I have to have an answer. This year, it was so impromptu, that I just bought couple of bottles of gin and fresh mint and made the best mojito party there is! 

Yet, the next day you start thinking who did not came/call/wished(singed) “Happy Birthday”. Did they forgot? Have I forgot to call them? Should I have had invited them anyway? Should I call them now? Eventually, time goes by and you forget about these questions.

However, the time comes when they have their own special day. These days, with the notifications, Facebook or Skype is hard to forget or ignore someone’s birthday, but when you are doing a huge project, thoroughly immersed in the work,  or are out of the country, or life(and it counter part) just halts you in your every-day tasks,  these things happen!

I wished so many belated birthdays to friends and family members in the past few months, people start to wonder if I’ve become forgetful or ignorant! And the birthdays I miss the most are the ones of the great people of the history of the world, when I read a book by a famous writer (Victor Hugo, 26th of Feb Les Misérables or Charles Dickens, 7th of FebOliver Twist) or listen to great music (Mozart-27th January, Bob Marley-6th Feb, Norah Jones- 30th March, Marvin Gaye- 2nd April) or watched a great movie or documentary for an artist, scientists, sportist etc. 

I’ve missed so many events, birthdays, celebrations and moments of leisure and fun. Just now , looking back, I can see the sacrifice I have made. Sometimes you have to ask yourself if it is worth it. But for this…for now…I think it is.

Something unusual

My daily routine is something I have been working on for years. I have made for myself morning and evening rituals, periods of the day when I would drink tea, or drink coffee, when I would eat lunch, call my parents and grandparents, walk my dog etc. Incorporating the time spent on work and study would fit always, as I have plan B and C for anything.

But this year I’ve decided to finish my studies as a transfer student, far faaar away from home. It took great deal of building up confidence, facing challenges and ex-professors, admin, people who said it was a waste of time, but I got through it all and stick with my idea for quite some time. So, my routine got a bit different since the beginning of this year. I wrote essays, edited, rewrote, searched scholarships, translated the documents and worked.

The last deadline for the last application was March 1st. I have worked so hard right until the deadline that I got lost the next week! Suddenly I had too much time on my hands and no to do lists for the day, the week even the month! And what happens when you have no to dos? You become depressed, you get stuck in your head, you make up the stories for the up-come of your work, your future, your past work, “What could I have done more? Should I have done this differently? Would they notice? Would they like me? “…. And the circle goes round and round.

But then, one day, you get an email telling you have your first acceptance! Unbelievable that is so soon, that much, that I forwarded the email to my family and my closes friends to ask them what it means! You see, my biggest problem is my lack of self-confidence. But once I get some recognition, I strive and reach higher then I would ever imagine before.

It was unusual to fall back from my routines and rituals for a whole month, but now it’s incredible unusual how easy it is for me to get back on track because of a motivation as little as an email!

Thank you University of San Francisco! You made my day, my week, my month and perhaps my year 🙂 I can now go to sleep knowing that I have many things to finish on my to-do list tomorrow 🙂 Good night everyone, thanks for reading 🙂  

Naomi Campbell’s advice from Shape Magazine

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I was just reading SHAPE magazine and I love the advice Naomi is sharing in it. She gives her “best beauty secrets” which really are great advice for everyone! There are some that are not so secret to the world like “find your passion” or “eat clean”, but the second one : BREAK DOWN BARRIERS really intrigued me. 

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She talks about the starting off in the fashion world as one of the first few black models. Of course it was a world she had to break into, in order to be successful. So her lesson learned from that time:

“I learned if you don’t accept no for an answer, you often get a yes…. Every cover I got, I fought for. No’s don’t deter me- they make me more determined”

is what every person should understand and do, every day! Fight for what you know you should have: the freedom for everyone, the promotion or the job you want, the human and animal rights, the vacation days you need to spend with your family, the perfect health you know you deserve! 

I would definitely listen to this girl- hard to believe almost 44-year old woman with that face and body- as she clearly has succeeded in her professional life and from what I’ve read from her interview in the magazine, her inner, personal life as well. 

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Images from Shape Magazine : http://www.shape.com/